Finding True Friends

Well I just got my oh, idk 1000th or so invite to someone's group that was sent to my RL email today. I'm freakin tired of it! If I wanted to join a group I'd go to the place on search and join! The problem is this person says they are a friend of mine but yet I haven't spoken to them since leaving that azzhole Error I dated oh.....idk at LEAST SIX MONTHS AGO!!!!! Now why in the flying F**K would I want to join a person's group that obviously hasn't talked to me in 6 months? hmmmmmmm......I dunno either.... I'll tell you I have been given more wedding invitations, party invitations, birthday invitation etc in the last month than I know what to do with. Thing is, only one person has really given a tinker's dayum that I haven't been on SL in over a MONTH!

That would be my REAL friend Scotti Rhode. She is the ONLY ONE who has bothered to ask where the hell am I on my email and IM. yeah i've gotten the fake "where-are-you-and-I'm-going-to-ACT-concerned-only-cos-you-aren't-doing-what-you-said-you-would-do-and-now-I-have-to-do-it" email but they were filled with the assumption that I was missed only because the person sending it was having to do what I said I would help them with. Not that they genuinely missed me. I've actually been on and off of SL did you notice? nope not one person said hello. So don't give me this BS about how much you missed me cos sorry I'm not buying it. guess I shouldn't have been surprised tho. Why should SL be any different than RL when people real or virtual are still the same? *sigh*

So, once again I've done what I said I wouldn't do and I've created an alt. Actually I have quite a few now. A couple people know about 4 of them but if I have those and you know of them, surely there are others right? Did you honestly think I was dumb enough to tell you about them ALL Kincent dear? *laffs* That's right and I quit playing TW just like you did too remember?

Oh that's the other one, I guess he and I aren't talking anymore now you gotta love that one *sigh* Well Kincent love, the door is open to you and Scotti but I'm rethinking how I feel towards the rest of you. I do know I'm tired of all the f'n DRAMA on SL that comes with alot of you; tired of all the bitchin' some of you bring and expect me to listen; tired of people expecting me to be there for them yet they aren't for me when I need someone; and most of all I'm tired of having to listen to myself bitch period. I'm more tired of all this BS than I am of all the STUPID ASS HUNTS on SL! Dayum that's enough to make a person wanna quit right there! Glad I've met new people with my other accounts and made new friends. They remembered when my rl birthday was and y'kno what? They even had me a party too!

I can go back to the reason I came to SL to begin with and don't have to be weighed down cos they just let me "be". Y'kno sometimes when people uncheck you on their firends list, that is USUALLY A SIGN THEY WANT TO BE LEFT ALONE! Not bugged to death especially when they are with someone! Especially something stupid like some f'n sale (yeah idc about shooz either when i'm with someone!) or new dress or even worse a problem YOU are having with YOUR man! Yeah that's what I wanna hear right in the middle of sex....(Example of what I deal with.....friend sends SEVEN SEPARATE IM's........oh ya it happens all the time! or worse more than just 1 friend)




Now this is usually around 9PM-1AM SLT when everyone in the USA is usally in BED or getting well you kno......
Friend IM#1: hey Mel guess what? there is a shoe sale over at ABC Store!
(I ignore it)

5 min later Friend IM #2: Did you see it in XYZ's frebie blog?
(I ignore it AGAIN)

another 5 min and I get Friend IM #3: You don't wanna MISS IT!
(by this time I'm getting pissed but I ignore it too)

ANOTHER 5min and they send Friend IM #4: If you are with Mr X, he can wait this sale is only for an hour!
(well just great there goes the mood.......guess I'll have to fake this one hope he doesn't notice.....i AGAIN ignore it using the patience of JOB and what they taught me in my anger management class)

they then have the audacity to send yet ANOTHER Friend IM #5: Awwww...come on! Don't you wanna come now?

(out of shear frustration) I respond: actually dumbazz I was about to but not where you are!
(friend then gets pissed, we usually fight, and she then thinks I'm a total bitch but dayum wonder why I said what I did??? hmmmmm.......take a hint next time! this was REALLy bad when I was working omg)




That was just an example of what I deal with ALL the time! When I"m with someone its ok for EVERYONE to bug the hell outta me but OH NO I can't say one thing to you if you are with your man. You get all pissed. Well you know what, I WANT TO BE LEFT THE F**K ALONE TOO! Dayum that was asking ALOT outta y'all wasn't it? Just to let me be? If I had "busy" on oh my LAWD you thought the f'n world had ended....I couldn't do that noooo cos I was mad at you if I did that.....hmmm.....friends..........sure is amazing what 2 years will teach you.......

My Birthday

Well yesterday was my birthday. I'm not sure what is worse, that I am reminded that I'm another year older or that nobody remembered it? It was just another day a regular boring old day. Getting older sure does suck. Thing is, I'm really good at remembering other people's birthdays why is it that they don't care to remember mine? and people wonder why I want to go hide in some box and mail myself off somewhere else? Well gee Captain Obvious it isn't that hard to figure out to me *sigh* So I'm having a pity party instead of a birthday party yes.