Building the Walls Again

People say hate is such a strong word but so is love. They throw it around like it is nothing...

You say you cant stand to see me get hurt so did you close your eyes when you hurt me?

I knew looking back on the tears would make me laugh but I had no idea looking back on the laughs would make me cry.
A broken heart will always hurt its all of these memories that kill. I'm crying inside but nobody knows it because on the outside I'm going to smile and laugh so people can't see what is really going on. I've been doing that for so long it has become second nature.

Are you happy now?

I dont remember the last time my smile was true until i met you. I'm still going to smile... the fake one i've been doing for so long so that people can't see the hurt that is really going on inside. How I do love to make others laugh and do it best when I feel like crying.

Someone once told me a quote that went "Love has its own time, its own season, its own reasons for coming and going. You can't coax it into coming or staying. You can only embrace it and give it away when it comes to you."

Took the walls down when I met you what I said to myself I wasn't going to do. I thought you would be different, but here I am with the hammer and nails putting my walls back up again. Need more wood and nails this time b/c the walls weren't high enough.

So I guess if you are done breaking my heart guess i'll go. The hardest part about walking away is knowing you won't run after me.....

Nothing is more painful than realizing he meant everything to you and you meant nothing to him. Thank you for all of the dances my only regret is that you wanted to leave without getting to dance one last time