How are y'all?

For the past month and a half I have been working odd jobs here and there trying to make ends meet. This comes after over 3years of no work. I will tell you it is a rude awakening going from nothing to do, to get it all done yesterday. It is good money but I can't spend it.

The wallet is fat.

It is fat but at what cost?

Am I happy?

Maybe. Well I am always happy so that is an unfair question. A better question would be am I okay.

So, Am I okay?

Let me think about it while I drink this glass of wine....

Am I okay? hmmmm.... I have my days of regret and questioned intentions but I see the rewards and fruit of labor dangling their carrots and I can't resist.

I hate working.

I move everyday twenty miles down the road every single day. I am like a gypsy in that way. But it's okay, the money is good and the wallet is fat.

I am not what I do, I am who I am.

I do what I have to so that I can drink what I want to.

On the road it is as if I have taken a rocket ship to some distant planet where communications can't reach me because I feel I have lost contact with everyone who matters.

I am of the grid.


GONE.

It kind of puts things into perspective. You can definitely figure out who really misses you and you definitely know who you miss.

Am I okay? The answer to that question is NO but I know that at in any point in life I will never be okay. It puts me in a place of constant struggle. I need to feel that life is an up hill battle. It is because I am so happy that I have to balance it with discomfort


But enough about me. How are y'all?