Guilt

Haven't been back to SL since I danced with Laurent. Mostly b/c of guilt. Not sure why but thats what I feel. I'm not owned at least not anymore. I'm my own person free to make my own choices again and yet here I am feeling guilty just b/c of one silly harmless little dance. Besides I know nothing else happened so why the guilt? Its my other feelings that are getting in the way.

OMG i hate SL!

This is EXACTLY why I said i did NOT want to get into another relationship again especially this quickly. I should not be feeling anything remotely like guilt. No way! Its been TOO long since I've had real fun on this dumb game and i've put way too much time, money and effort.... mostly time.... to not have some fun... REAL fun that is.... and not have to worry about the consequences. Relationships mess all of that up b/c feelings get hurt and you have to worry about if the other person is going to be all jealous if you have a night out with someone else.

Total BS!

I like to think that I'm not a jealous person I really do. Usually I can keep jealousy in check.... ok do admit it got out of hand with Ethaan but thats a whooooole other story. idk that ive ever gotten completely over him to be honest b/c we ended things so badly but other than that this is freakin SL! Name me one person who has honest to God been completely 100% faithful to their partner on here? hmmmm..... can't think of anyone i know! Not that it makes it right its just the nature of the crazy game and also why I've not been partnered. Not b/c I don't want to... I'd love nothing more than! I think I'm prolly the oldest av on the grid who can say she never has to be honest and I guess thats kinda sad. Granted I've broken UP a few partnerships in my day but hell that isn't my fault they can't keep it in their pants. I do what I do and be myself what happens well then that just happens I still have the no kiss and tell rule. OK maybe with Scotti but I know she won't tell a soul. Have too much dirt on her hahaha. Talk about guilt damn i'd be up shit creek if she ever blabbed. Then again there aren't many who would care to know either *sigh* oh well so much for that.... guess i'll go to SL and see what kind of hell i can raise lol