*sigh*

Its not often that i get upset w folks..... yeah i know yall are like whaaaat? total BS and you point to my previous posts... but no really upset i mean. I had asked SPECIFICALLY to go to Vicksburg, eat b'fast at the Sunday brunch at Ameristar, and go to the outlet mall to try to find me some jeans which i desperately need. Pretty dang specific what I was wanting to do today.

I'm told you men need us to be specific for us to get what we want outta you and i'll be dam if thats not exactly what i did.

So I leaned over and tell the hubby what i was wanting to do...... ask if he would take me b/c I can't exactly go by myself....

His reply.... "but we can't b/c you went out last night".... excuse the FUCK OUTTA ME! I haven't been out in over 3mos... literally not out of the damn house! I've been cooped the fuck up and haven't been a single place except for my doctor's offices. Haven't been to Walmart, not the grocery store, out to eat dinner, the mall.... well OK with the exception of one store... in and out to get shooz so that i can half ass walk.... i do mean NOTHING! I've asked NUMEROUS times to go do something besides sit at this fuckin house watching TV and doing absoufuckinlutely NOTHING. Saying I have cabin fever is one of the biggest understatements of the year! We can't go on vacation.... took 5yrs to go on one from our honeymoon until last year so scuz the fuck outta me if I want to go somewhere on my mother's bday so that i dont have to sit the fuck in this bed another damn day! I'm so furious right now I can't even look at him much less be in the same room.

So tonight he asks me if i'm alright.... OH MY GOD..... i got up and left the room. Haven't even talked to him since this AM when i asked about going..... don't plan on it anytime soon neither. I went out last night..... oh my lawd WRONG ANSWER! and he wonders why he never gets any jezus Captain Obvious.... maybe b/c i can't stand to be in the room with you???

So saying "i'm pissed" doesn't even scratch the surface... and on my mother's bday too.

He tells me things are going to change, that we are going to be different. Well i'll believe that when I see it b/c right now it aint been different. We WERE getting better but dammit that just made all those good times take 10 steps backwards.... *sigh* and on my mother's bday