In Pain in More Ways Than One....

had to go to the dentist today

sux

I hate dentists

he is a really nice man and a friend of my daddy's but its not him per se its just his profession. If there is one thing I am afraid of besides roaches, needles and heights it's dayum dentists. they skeer the shit outta me. all that scraping and drillin and dayum shit. oooooo i'm getting chills jus thinkin about it!

Thought i was gonna have to get a cavity filled but TG i avoided that! Musta misunderstood or something last visit idk. Who cares as long as i didn't have to right? My family has crappy teeth. Its in our genes..... I'm thinkin I'll just avoid the dayum dentists and change into some shorts or pants or maybe a nice skirt or somethin

middle of the week......

haven't talked to Alex in 2 days. So yes I'm longing to. Got a couple of IM's and emailes but its not the same as an actual convo. Nice of course and always better than not hearing anything. He is with the fam so I totally get it but since I realize that I'm a selfish person I know its wrong to want to monopolize his time too. Can't help how I feel tho but RL does and always will come first. I never will ask for him to take away time from his kids. No that wouldn't be right not in any form. I know how I get upset when I can't see my daddy and I'm 35 yrs old so I couldn't imagine what a lil kid would do. so no I wouldn't ask him to take time away from them.

Speaking of my daddy he goes and drops a bombshell on me.... I'm ok with it but idk something is buggin me and I'm not sure what it is. He tells me he has started dating. When he told me I totally ignored it like I didn't hear it and kept on rattling off like i do. He stopped me and repeated what he said. I'm like hmmm so he's dating huh? The man has never "dated" not ever never ever in his life. oh to be a fly on that wall sheesh.... ok take that back that would be even more awkward than him droppin this bombshell on me.

Think i know what's buggin tho. It's the fact that he and my momma were suppose to grow old together. Sit on the porch swing watchin grandkids in the yard. That's not going to happen. she was taken too soon too damn soon and its buggin me now that there is someone else. I'm happy he is happy I really am cos I know he is too dayum young to be going thru life alone.

but it aint my momma he is goin thru life with

Her name is Beverly. Apparently some family friends of ours introduced them about a month ago. A FREAKIN MONTH! yeah he has been seein her for 4 weeks and just now tells me *sigh* idk part of me thinks its b/c he didn't want to hurt me and part of me thinks he was wanting to see if this would work out and part of me thinks he was scared how I would react. I didn't act a fool i didn't honest! I waited until I got home and actually thought about it to act a fool.... like oh... now for instance.

He and my momma dated since high school. He didn't go out with another woman ever not once. Well unless he did when he was in the Army and if he did i dont wanna know. If I have some Japanese Vietnamese Chinese brother/sister speakin ching chang that i can't half understand I really do NOT want to know. So don't be showin up on my doorstep or ill shoot your ass you aint no relative of mine kinda like my aunts stupid ass husband she ran off and married.... dumbass (-.-)

well i chased a rabbit there didn't i? LOL get me started on some bastard child and I run with it hahaha oh well its my dayum blog ima say what i want

I just dont know about this Beverly person. Apparently she sounds a lot like me. Which that brings up a WHOLE other topic. I drive my Daddy crazy and we both know that! Not the good kinda crazy either the kinda crazy that makes you wanna pull your hair out and run screamin down the hall kinda crazy. So why the HELL is he datin some chick like me for? She apparently is an arteest or into art or something artsy fartsy like i am. She teaches psychology at the local comm college so right there that tells you she is fucked up. An arteest AND a psychologist WTH?!?!?! So i asked my daddy if Beverly is gonna examine me and try to figure me the hell out.... ha! good luck lady. Them idiots at 3Oaks couldn't do it so i doubt you can either.

She apparently is 30 days younger than my daddy too so she is older than dirt. I reckon thats good since they will know the same kinda stuff and get the same kinda jokes. he said she is really blunt talkin and a very independent kinda person too. Hey I think I like this woman! wait a min what did i just say? o.0 yeah i kno right? Her husband died 14 yrs ago and she has a daughter who is 24 and is about to get married. yippee big deal.... i reckon my daddy will get invited to that weddin too. The lady doesn't even like to go campin! So i wonder what the hell is he gonna do with that brand new RV he just bought 3yrs ago? hmmmmm...... give it to his absolutely fantabulous bestest awsum daughter in the world perhaps? *beams* now there is an idea!

Prolly not gonna happen but was a nice thought.....

Beverly..... *sigh* B-E-V-E-R-L-E-Y..... she best not hurt him or ill kill the bitch