TGIF????

idk if I'm glad its Friday or not. To be honest its not phasing me much since I've been up since Wednesday. Couldn't sleep no..... gee wonder why.....



As to Alex, we were friends and things started heating up a few weeks ago. Now I think he is just a boneafide stalker to be honest. He has taken just my first RL name, the general location of where I live, Imelda's Facebook info, and of course what he knew on SL and hunted down my real life info. Alex now has contacted me on my real facebook page and claims he knows my street address, my husband's full RL name (all he knew before was my husbands first name, has seen all of my real pics of my family (which creeps me out), and the kicker he knows my husbands middle name as well my mother's maiden name. My hubby NEVER uses his middle name for anything its always an initial b/c he hates it worse than he hates his first name. He is a "Jr" after his father. So now this guy (Alex) that I THOUGHT I knew I am realizing I don't know at all.

So now I'm realizing (proverbial brick upside the head?) he has been lying to me which is my BIGGEST pet peeve. I hate liars! Try my hardest not to lie I really do. Not on a game and not in RL. Then I know yall are reading this and going hmmmm Mel.... yeah right but what about Kincent? yeah yeah yeah i know.... i wasn't in my right mind then. and I didn't lie i just didn't come right out and say "Hey baby guess what I'm having an affiar love ya mean it" *sigh* i did tell the truth when I was confronted tho tyvm and no i didn't try to weasel my way out of it like a lot of people would have done. For the record Kin was the ONE and ONLY time i have ever done that


Now idk what to believe or if I even want to remain friends with this guy that I thought i meant something to. Thing is this keeps happening over and over. Thats what hurts so bad. SL just kills me when this happens b/c I let myself get so freakin involved and wrapped up in it no matter how hard i try not to. Said I wasn't going to do this remember? total lie b/c i did. Like I said earlier I think in some sadistic way I like it or I wouldn't keep doing this over and over again.

I know what I want in SL I've been looking for over 3 years to find it and haven't yet. idk if the bar is set too high or what but just like in RL i'm not lowering it b/c I know this person I'm suppose to be with is out there..... somewhere. If I lower the bar and compromise myself I'll end up with another "Clint" (my 1st and only marriage in SL not partner just married for 2 weeks). I've never partnered and I feel like an old maid. I really do and I guess thats what is really buggin me.