Missing Alex

Well Alex is gone.... just left actually and I'm alone again with my thoughts. I miss him already. God I hate SL

ok not really

I hate that I feel this strongly for someone AGAIN and I said I so wasn't going to do this. Yeah right sure Mel you say stuff all the time and here you are in love with him. He hasn't been gone 10min and you want him back.

That's how I know I have it bad omg I have it really bad this time. It's getting stronger than the feelings I had for Eth and Kincent combined. Dayum i'm in trouble with this one and I know it. What's worse is HE knows it. Haven't felt like this since Caden. Hell Alex could BE Caden IRL for all I know *sigh*

i never did get over Caden (and I thought i never would) but now I am finding out that the feelings I had for Caden are even being replaced. i said that wouldn't happen for another man... not ever never ever in a million yesrs. i know better than to say never b/c that usually is EXACTLY what happens.

OMG I am in love with this man and I don't know if I can help myself


I'm trying so hard to take things slow. Keep the brakes on ya know? pffft who am I foolin? that's so not happening! I've fallen heels over head absolutely in love with Alex and I can't help myself in spite of my best efforts to guard my heart.

He said before he left he hopes another guy doesn't come along this week while he is gone and snatch me away. Y'know I got to thinking about that. I dont WANT to be with someone else. Even if they did come along and try. I dont WANT another man I just want him. I want him so bad it hurts and my heart is breaking that he is going to be gone an ENTIRE WEEK! *sigh* I'll be counting the seconds until I can see him again. Unitl I can be in his arms again. Dancing the night away. Kissing him until dawn. Laughing about things that others just wouldn't get or remotely find humorous. Exploring the heights and depths of this great world we call Second Life like nobody else has with me before no matter where that place is. Being home with him and doing absolutely nothing but be together.

Just Being ME with him and yet so much more..... omg I am so in love with you Alex! Come home soon!