What a SHITTY Day!

Middle of the week.... Humpday

Spoz to be a good day b/c we are half way there to the weekend right?

WRONG!

I think hmmm.... i need a distraction.... Alex is gone so why not go to Pegase and see what is going on.... so I log in and realize or what I thought I realized was going to be a Hawpanyu orientation meeting. So I'm like early for once in my life and log on just so I can go to it. Figure it would be nice to go somewhere quiet and just chill for awhile. maybe learn something in the process..... a bonus!

So I go to what I think is going to be an orientation meeting. This is what the note card says "24 June @ 11am SLT - Healer Orienttaion/Meditation Center outside Hometree". ORIENTATION right? suppose to be a meet n greet n get to know you kinda thing.

WRONG!

Get there and I'm rezzing in. 2 other ppl are there that I've never met. Our leader Banba that I have only talked to a couple of times via NC and IM is late.... again mind you after we had the last meeting and I waited AN HOUR only to find out that she never did come online the entire day. Yes I know RL comes first and yes I know shit happens but dayum when you have that many people coming you would think to have a way to contact SOMEONE and let them know whether or not you were going to make it or not. idk maybe thats just me but hells bells thats called common courtesy too.

So I get to this meeting today and I'm sitting there w these other 2 people who obviously know each other... and obviously know the instructor too a lot better than I do. I just want to try to learn and do this right. I've been trying so hard to fit in with these people. Had it not been for Laimis I really wouldn't be doing this at all. So far he is just about the only person who has been nice to me on this sim. I'm not really sure his being nice is going to keep me there either. Especially after what has happened today....

Banba asked one of the ppl to go find some plant that ive never heard of. So I lock on this person while the 2 of them trot off. Figure if they are going to leave i might as well see where they are going right? Besides I cam a WHOLE LOT BETTER than I walk cos of rez issues n stuff like that.

Anyways, so i see this plant Ive seen before and I said "ooo i've seen that!" oh my word you would have thought I had announced i had AIDS or something! Jeeeeez Banba lit into me like a hot knife thru butter! Made me feel about 2" tall..... idk maybe i was a lil over sensitive today but dayum it was still mean whether i was being sensitive or not. Especially since i had no idea what they were talking about and i SAID i didnt know what they were talking about too!

Here is the chat: (we are speaking in Na'Vi and wearing translators so what I'm saying isn't translated but what other ppl are saying is in brackets below this is also showing how much SHIT i see when I try to RP just so you get an idea of how hard this is to figure out wtf is goin on when not counting all the rez issues. btw my Na'Vi name is Liyanin (Julie))

[2010/06/23 11:05] Alyara: Oel lu ha oel lu ke ne ulte ra'a niwotx
[2010/06/23 11:05] Liyanin (Julie):
[2010/06/23 11:06] Liyanin (Julie): Oei ngati kame aytsmukan ulte aytsmuke oel nga sla oel tsun ke kame
[2010/06/23 11:06] MystiTool HUD 1.3.0-freebie:
Entering chat range: Banba Muircastle (19m)
[2010/06/23 11:06] Banba Muircastle touches her forehead
[2010/06/23 11:06] (SP) Passion AO.: OFF
[2010/06/23 11:06] Alyara: Oei ngati kame
[2010/06/23 11:06] Liyanin (Julie):
[2010/06/23 11:06] Banba: Kaltxi aytsmuke
[2010/06/23 11:06] Liyanin (Julie):
[2010/06/23 11:06] Liyanin (Julie): Kaltxi tsmuke
[2010/06/23 11:07] Alyara: Kaltxi
[2010/06/23 11:07] Liyanin (Julie):
[2010/06/23 11:07] Ti'Vani (Zarkela): Oel nga, aytsmuke
[2010/06/23 11:07] Liyanin (Julie):
[2010/06/23 11:07] Banba Muircastle: ❤ Ì Ş∈∈ Ϋ☉Ŭ ❤
[2010/06/23 11:08] IM: Banba Muircastle (auto-response): Hi, thanks for IMing me but I am unavailable at the moment as I am giving a tarot card reading. I will respond when I am finished. Thanks.
[2010/06/23 11:08] Banba: Oel lu
[2010/06/23 11:08] Liyanin (Julie):
[2010/06/23 11:09] Banba: Pxel nga niwotx omum fikem lu ke ultxa
[2010/06/23 11:09] Liyanin (Julie):
[2010/06/23 11:09] Banba: Sla irayo
[2010/06/23 11:09] Liyanin (Julie):
[2010/06/23 11:09] JAM smiles thank you for coming too sister
[2010/06/23 11:09] Banba: Nga ke sla lu ne
[2010/06/23 11:09] Liyanin (Julie):
[2010/06/23 11:09] Liyanin (Julie):
[2010/06/23 11:10] Banba: Fikem lu...lu ke hapxi tskxekeng
[2010/06/23 11:10] Liyanin (Julie):
[2010/06/23 11:10] Ti'Vani (Zarkela): Ke set ta ke
[2010/06/23 11:11] Banba: Ohe kame
[2010/06/23 11:11] Liyanin (Julie):
[2010/06/23 11:11] Liyanin (Julie): Munge ngeya krr tsmuke
[2010/06/23 11:12] Banba: Tsun nga ting nari tsengpe nga lu ne kame txo
[2010/06/23 11:12] Liyanin (Julie):
[2010/06/23 11:12] Banba: Si nga omum pe pxel?
[2010/06/23 11:12] Liyanin (Julie):
[2010/06/23 11:12] Banba: Txo ha nga tsun ting nari mi nga
[2010/06/23 11:12] Liyanin (Julie):
[2010/06/23 11:12] Banba: Ulte ting nari
[2010/06/23 11:12] Liyanin (Julie):
[2010/06/23 11:13] MystiTool HUD 1.3.0-freebie:
Entering chat range: Banba Muircastle (18m)
[2010/06/23 11:16] JAM: were we supppose to follow? i wasn't sure
[2010/06/23 11:16] Alyara: Oel lu ke pe fikem lu
[2010/06/23 11:16] Liyanin (Julie):
[2010/06/23 11:16] SalaLove Alter: she ask specific person to look for it
[2010/06/23 11:16] JAM: ((grrrr my ooc isn't working ok i have my cam on her but i wasn't sure lol))
[2010/06/23 11:18] Alyara: Oel omum
[2010/06/23 11:18] Liyanin (Julie):
[2010/06/23 11:18] MystiTool HUD 1.3.0-freebie:
Entering chat range: Banba Muircastle (17m)
[2010/06/23 11:19] Banba: Lu....
[2010/06/23 11:19] Liyanin (Julie):
[2010/06/23 11:19] Liyanin (Julie): Oel sla oel ke omum pe oel
[2010/06/23 11:19] MystiTool HUD 1.3.0-freebie:
Entering chat range: Zarkela Tucker (19m)
[2010/06/23 11:19] Banba: Txo nga pelun nga ke srung
[2010/06/23 11:19] Liyanin (Julie): <Banba said "If you have seen the plant why did you not help us search for it">
[2010/06/23 11:20] Ti'Vani (Zarkela): Oel,
[2010/06/23 11:20] Liyanin (Julie):
[2010/06/23 11:20] DCS2 2.99.10: You Gain 10 xp
Total Xp:
[2010/06/23 11:20] Liyanin (Julie): Oel krr ke fipo
[2010/06/23 11:20] Banba: Ulte nga ke?
[2010/06/23 11:20] Liyanin (Julie):
[2010/06/23 11:20] Banba: .... niltsan pelun nga ke srung
[2010/06/23 11:20] Liyanin (Julie): <Banba said "hmmmm.... well then why did you not help us find it here">
[2010/06/23 11:20] Liyanin (Julie): Oel ila peya hu...
[2010/06/23 11:20] Alyara: Oel ra'a kame
[2010/06/23 11:20] Liyanin (Julie):
[2010/06/23 11:20] Banba: Zene si hapxi
[2010/06/23 11:20] Liyanin (Julie):
[2010/06/23 11:20] Liyanin (Julie): Oel ke omum pe
[2010/06/23 11:21] Banba: Tsun nga tsni nga ke pe?
[2010/06/23 11:21] Liyanin (Julie): <Banba said "Can you admit that you did not not what eyaye was?">
[2010/06/23 11:21] Liyanin (Julie): Fu pe
[2010/06/23 11:21] Liyanin (Julie): Oel ra'a kehe
[2010/06/23 11:21] Banba: Siltsan.
[2010/06/23 11:21] Liyanin (Julie):
[2010/06/23 11:21] Banba: Lu ne.
[2010/06/23 11:21] Liyanin (Julie):
[2010/06/23 11:21] Banba: Pehrr moe ra'a omum,lu siltsan ne, oel ra'a omum.
[2010/06/23 11:21] Liyanin (Julie):
[2010/06/23 11:21] Banba Muircastle glances at Ti'Vani
[2010/06/23 11:21] Banba: Moe nga tsmuke
[2010/06/23 11:21] Liyanin (Julie):
[2010/06/23 11:21] Ti'Vani (Zarkela) nods
[2010/06/23 11:21] Liyanin (Julie):

I'm like WTF?!?!?! EXCUSE ME????? I had JUST SAID idk what they were looking for (yes you can't read it b/c its in another language but i DID SAY IT) So my feelings get really hurt at this point b/c I've been trying so hard to do this and learn what i can right? Plus when I try to RP with other ppl I'm usually ignored or someone is just horrible to me. I even brought Alex to watch a training match and they were flat out RUDE to him! He didn't even say a word to anyone! I'm like this is ridiculous people are this freakin mean and rude around here!

So I think its time for me to take my toys and go play somewhere else. I can get this shit at home I dont need it in SL too.

My day started off bad and it got worse from there. I'm just glad its over and tomorrow is a new day. Jeez I hope ppl realize how much words can hurt folks. I'm the worst at cutting ppl but omg they usually deserve it! I dont just go around saying crap to be saying it. What Banba said really did make me cry and I haven't been back on SL since. idk if I am going back b/c I just dont want this shit. I have enough to deal with in RL w/o it. TG i have alts